toOk back my chem today...
ermx dunno whether to luff or cry...gOt 51.
tO luff is cOs i finally made it!
I'm out of the failing border~!
i've improved by 15 marks!
To cry is i have sO many careless mistakes..i could have gOtten full marks for my sections on ionic equilibria..as for organic chem, i spent more tym studying but i was stuck most of the tym.
then my mcq was the lowest out of my major test & exam..10..very disappointed indeed but i heard there're pple failing MCQ..
what's the world coming to?
this time's MCQs are all sO hard..hahha..
hOhOx.
now i'm gonna talk abt the main topic of this entry: SPORTS.
it reminded me of the reading programme article i read ytd...
mainly talks abt SPORTS being more than playing, pastimes & bonding..
it has more hidden agendas..sO tt lower the integrity of sports itself.
today i cried during trng..literally in front of almost everyone(or almost everyone saw it).
couldn't control myself...i was actually quite surprised i let it all out...lOlx.
cOs i was doing harai & there're sO many mistakes at 1 shOt..then i've been sticking to this throw for like mths & no results came out of it..everytym i absorb smth, out comes the other.
sO i was sO sick of myself mentally.
but i guess tt's nt the only factOr...
sometimes i feel this CCA is beyond me...like sO many obstacles, so many miracles that needed to be performed.
then coach tan say win or lose doesn't matter...hmMM..
then jacq said she's nt in cOmpetiton so the judo trngs have become meaningless..
now this is the real meaning of SPORTS.
esp when it comes to serious play, SPORTS become competition, survival of the fittest, expectations, business, politics, economics...all jumbled into 1.
it's diff when u play badmintion wif ur frens 2 keep fit & when u play it cOS u must win the finals...
i guess everyone knows tt...hhaha.
and yes, judo becomes serious play for me...
wells i tink it's the pressure & expectations(not motivation & goals) that made things real hard.
just felt insecure at times, like i have nO goOd throw..
just felt incompetent like i'm nt quick or strong or flexible enuff.
just felt pressurized when time is going against me & there's A lvls...
but yes, tml will be a better day!
& challenges make a man stronger~
